Sorry as Hell- Updates

I’m going to skip the part about me being sorry for not writing because one thing that I would rather not think about is how I’m letting my life just pass- I’m not taking time for myself, to write my diary, to write in the blog, and to email people I love. It’s not like I’m always busy- which actually makes it worse becasue I’m spending time doing nothing. What happens is that I spend an hour too much on the computer browsing random sites, half an hour too long having random null chats with people, and the likes. Every now and then, there is a sudden surge of energy and emotion (for just one of the two is not powerful enough to make me write- my diary or blog or emails) and I sit for half-an-hour (or more) to write. But that is rare.

Anyway, moving on to the updates:

1. Now that I’ve told nearly everyone who needs to get personal updates on my life, I think it’s safe to write on the blog (no more fear of beheading) that I am very madly in love, and I fall deeper and deeper in love every day. I know there are a lot of people who don’t believe in long distance relationships (even my brother doesn’t, although he hopes that my story lasts.) But like a character in Experimental Heart (a novel by Jennifer Rohn) says about commercial science, there are some things you won’t believe in until you give it a chance. Or until it becomes person to you. Anyway, I am so insanely in love (don’t worry, I still study hard) that my roommate thinks I’m “crazy.” So do I, to tell you the truth. And I don’t care, frankly, becasue so is he. (If you’re curious about the fun details- I met him for the third time the day I wrote the songs on my playlist http://maichyang.wordpress.com/2009/05/28/pyaar-dosti-hai-love-is-friendship/#comments and he played all but one of them- and he didn’t even know my blog. He was also my inspiration for the poem “YOU” http://maichyang.wordpress.com/2009/06/29/you/ although fortunately we haven’t gone “off” yet. (touchwood)
2. I’m really happy where I am, and rememberring what Priyanka told me when I didn’t get good financial aid anywhere (The College that I now attend increasaed it after a while). “You’re meant to go to a certain place and meet certain people; don’t worry you’ll get there”. http://maichyang.wordpress.com/2009/03/29/cross-your-fingers-for-me/ I guess I did end up where I was meant to go. I’m usually not a fatalist, but I’m really happy about where I ended up coming to college.
3. I’ve been doing pretty well at classes. So far so good. Been getting pretty good grades on papers and doing them on time. Happy.
4. Well, Dashain is here, and I’m missing home a bit more than I usually do. Thankfully, I haven’t been missing home a lot. I mean once in a while I do, of course. I think sometimes that Baba and Aama still go “Musa!” every once in a while. I feel bad that Bhai doesn’t have anyone to tell the wierdest details about his day to, like which couple in his class fought and the likes. And while I know that I won’t “drift apart” from my parents, I fear that my Brother and I might, in terms of how much we share. Back to the topic of Dashain, I miss my grandparents and my larger family. And mutton. Lots of mutton. Hmm… But I survive. Last year I wasn’t with my parents in Dashain either, and according to Baba, you don’t need Dashain to get blessings from your parents and family.
5. What bugs me a bit is that talking to friends from school (and other friends) sn’t as convinient as it used to be. But we are in touch, and I still love them loads.
6. Last but not the least, it’s very it feels really nice to know that your parents know about your boyfriend and approve of him. (Baba expresses it but Aama doesn’t bring it up.) Zindagi rocks.

Till next time, (I swear I’m not going to disappear for 50 days…)
Maichyang.