A Wonderful Wonderful Day

Yesterday was a wonderful wonderful day, followed by a bad start today. But well, let’s start with the nice part.

I woke up at 6 (pretty early for a person who doen’t have school or work) and waied for Mom. Oh yeah, and wrote a blog post meanwhile. Then Mom came-joys abound!- after (just) 4 days in Birtamod.

Then I went out with Yash, Loony, and S. They bought me a beautiful necklace for my graduation, which is next saturday. (Actually it was a pending birthday gift.) You should’ve seen Samir’s face when we were exploring (and trying on) a thousand different this-and-thats. The one we ended up buying was orange and white, and will compliment my sari. What’s better- I have a matching bracelet. Then we went to Roadhouse to eat. Yummy. After that, I had an appointment with this American guy, Steven, who does something called intuition reading. It’s amazing, really. He has a deck o cards that resemble tarrot cards. The only difference is, he doesn’t tell the future. He asks us to pick out a card and interpret it. And then we talk about it. it’s like a “know yourself” session. It’s about what you’re going through at the moment, in the present. He asks you about your beliefs before proceeding to the concept of “soul” and stuff, but even when it gets to that, it’s not like he’s preaching. He just talks to you basically. I’ll write a post about him in the near future (perhaps after I visit him again, and IF he gives me permission.) Yash, Looney, and S were so happy I took them to Steven, but actually it was the first time I was meeting Steven too, and Boy, was I impressed!

People Connections

Something yesterday set me to think about people and attachments. And seriously, people really inspire me. People and the relationships set me thinking; they truly amaze me. And there are so many types of relationships, it’s awesome.

I was writing an email to a friend yesterday about stuff like this. Then I rememberred what another friend had told me, “It’s when you feel you won’t lose a certain person that you start taking him/her for granted and the relationship loses balance.” Maybe that is why members of a family hadly LIKE each other, although they LOVE each other very much. There’s aslo a rare type of friends; we know so much about them that there’s hardly anything to talk about anymore. We’ve accepted (or ignored) our differences, and we know about the similarities (not just as people, but our beliefs and ideologies, and everything else.) Sometimes I’m scared that I’m taking some of those people for-granted…

There are other are friends you know very well (like the first type) but you still don’t run out of stuff to talk about. There are always two-minute-long (or longer) that we manage to squeeze in, no matter how busy we are. Another type of attachements (friendships) that don’t fail to amaze me are “friends in need”: the ones who’re there when you’re going through something and shamelessly ask for help when they’re going through a rocky period. At other times, we’re just acquaintainces, but we can turn to each other when we’re in need.

Anger, Spite, etc

I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but I feel so spiteful about everything. This is not me; I swear something has gotten into me.

I feel annoyed with everyone, shcoked and disgusted at how inflexible people can be, wanting things to be exactly as they say it should be. You should put your books in class before assembly? What sort of bull-crap is that? And why does Daddy Darling not ride his bike to Tripureshwor to get Bhai his stuff when Bhai’s in a hurry to go to schhol? Can’t he walk to work instead, and waste only his time instead of both HIS AND BHAI’S? Aarghh!!!

Some Thoughts on Parenting

Here are some tips on parenting vows I made about raising my children (yes, yes, 10 yrs later) thoughts about parenting. They stem from frustration of seeing other people’s extremely spoilt kids.

1. I will not get children if I have any confusion about my ability to raise them by myself. I will not send my children to live with my parents or sibling(s) or cousins and I will not get them private tuitions, at least until they are 12. AND NEVER TO BOARDING SCHOOL. What’s the point of my getting kids (or raising adopted kis or whatever) if I can’t experience the pleasure of seeing them grow up, and having a hand in it?

A Day Well Spent

One thing about the day that no one (at least no one in my family) seems to care about: I survived the day with onlye one meal (about 8 momos) and two snacks (3 spoonfuls of rice $ popcorn, some chips, anad half a roll at the cinema hall). And I’m not even dieting!!! And “too busy” is not an excuse at all.

In the morning, I was in a bad mood. By 10, it was better. Decided to spend time on the eyeliner and rush through brunch (10 am). Thought that I’d get sth to eat at a resturant after I got the tickets to “Jaane tu Ya Jaane Na” (before they got sold out). First day first show. First time.

Maybe, just maybe, I’m still a kid

A friend used to keep saying stuff like “I need to grow up” and “I need to understand so many things” and I used to laugh. You may think I have too high an opinion f myself, but I used to think “Oh, well, I already understand a lot of thing about people and life. And I can deal with them.” I guess not always.

The thing is, I’ve come to realise, you can learn a lot from little things in life. Theoritically, we knoe we’re not the centre of the world. We don’t expect to be. But when it comes down to life, we hope to be. I think when people actually “grow up” they realise (truely) that the world is not about them, that people try to please the rice and powerful so that they can get ahead in life. And if we try to deny it, we’re just being hypocritical. I mean, why the hell would I want to be nice to the boss that overworks me? So that I won’t get fired, and can hopefully land a high-paying job in the future. Why would I even attend a class just to get out of it wanting to hang myself? Good recomendation, sweety, and maybe a passing grade.

In the end, people who cheat (or do and say things they don’t believe just to be on the good side) may feel bad for a day or two, but ultimately, they’ll be the bosses. Those of us who think we’re “truthful to ourselves” will die satisfied, but actually, so will everyone else- according to their different priorities. We may deny it, often till the very end, but the phrase “each to their own” has a lot more truth than we believe.