Maichyang’s Musings

December 31, 2007

2007 (an overview)

Filed under: Uncategorized — malika47 @ 10:14 pm

A year of everything, a year of nothing…

A year that brought more than I expected it to; more of both good and bad, happiness and sadness, and achievements and dissappointments.
A year of crazy smiles, and laughing about nothing, a year of reconciliations.
Of confusions
of confessions
of dreams built, dreams dilapidated- some of them rebuilt
of differences realised; some celebrated, some merely accepted, others ignored, and some not accepted
of New year resolutions forgotten by the end of Feb
of lessons learnt and experiences that taught absolutely nothing
of feeling powerless and feeble at times, at other times feeling ready to conquer the world
of chickening out at the last minute
of friendships built, friendships rebuilt, friendships treasured, and some quietly fading away
of getting over EF (yeah!)
of exams, failing math all over again
of anticipating change like never before

A year of hoping that everything will be fine- that a teacher will forget about an undone assignment, that the monthly grade will be bearable, that SAT reaults will be okay, that I get accepted by at least one college- with scholarship. Still crossing my fingers…

Wishing you a great new year,
Maichyang.

December 21, 2007

Aaja Nachle

Filed under: Uncategorized — malika47 @ 10:56 pm

We’re dancing at a talent show at school tommorrow (the practices are partly the reason I’m not writing), and today was the reharsals.

A group of girls who’d never danced on stage before. Except for two of us, who danced for the play. A group member who missed practice for the past five days, and is still dancing. Most of us either forget steps, miss the beats, or dance like a dead mouse. Until the dress rehersal, when we were absolutely great! A few (two out of six dancers) did forget some steps, but it was good all the same. For the first time since practice started two weeks ago, I felt the energy, the blood pumping in all my veins…

Ours is a medley of three Hindi songs… Show me ur Jalwa (Bulbul) form Aaja Nachle, Bidi Jalaile from Omkara and It’s Rocking from a Kareena Kapoor movie.

Special thanks to everyone in the audience who cheered for us. More thanks to those who bothered to cheer for me with my name… You really boosted my confidence. :) I can’t move anymore becasue I’ve been dancing like crazy –3 hrs last saturday, 4 hours sunday, 2 monday, 1 tuesday, 3.5 wednesday, 3 thurday and innumerable (actually only 3.5) today. That makes 20…. Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!

Well well, I love it… I’ll miss it after the grand finale is over tommorrow.

December 7, 2007

Endless Class(es)

Filed under: School — malika47 @ 9:42 pm

(Based on a real life experience- today’s)

It was 11:02 when Miss told us to sit down becasue we had “already wasted enough time.” I didn’t see the logic behind her claim; it had just been two minutes since the class was suposed to start.

The first time I looked at the digital clock on the wall after that was at 11:14, and I had already dozed off once (blame school- and homework- for not letting me sleep more than 4 hrs last night)
11:31
11:35- just woke up after falling asllep, chin-on -hand way. 25 minutes to go.
11:37
11:38- “so slow…? I mean time should be in a hurry when ur lazy and bored, no?” (more…)

December 4, 2007

Random thoughts

Filed under: School — malika47 @ 9:09 pm

I guess I wasn’t “back with a bang” after all, at least as a “writer”. School seems to be a problem (like Marxists say) indoctrinating into us a “capitalist’ ideology to turn us into machine-like individuals who will “shut up and listen” and stanching or repressing whatever little amount of creativity we had. And we are led to believe that it is for our “future” that we go to school and work our asses off.

I haven’t really been “working my ass off” actually. In fact, there has been a tremendous amount of work that I need to get done and thousands of tests to study for, and the amount I have to do, not the actual amount I do,  is enough to make me go sick. I mean I was sick of having to study (there were two tests today) although I slept at 9:30 last night and woke up at 6:oo this morning. Eight and a half hours is an hour and a half more than my normal sleeping time. I still think I did well on the two tests. If I really did, I’d consider myself a genius…

After a long time, I passed the Math. On the other hand, I got a 1/9 ona question for another assignment. (Baba, please don’t read this.) Life sucks and then you die, especially if (like me) you look like a crazy person when you’re happy, skipping and jumping around all over the place. Or if you spend half an hour trying to avoid a certain someone when the certain someone would’ve avoided you anyway, saving a whole lot of your trouble.

 P.S. I want to write my college essay about writing. Is that boring? Perhaps the best judges are the readers of my blog. (By the way, there has been a dramatic decline in the number of readers who do not know me personally, or at least in the number of comments by these people. Thanks to Pakhe, I still feel like my blog is read for pleasure and not for people trying to encourage me {or trying to br overly nosy, for that matter.} Maybe I need to give my blog a makeover, change the appearence and the likes.)

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